My life till now

I'm now 24, have had lots of dreams about life from childhood, are those the reality I face now?

I heard your answers too.

NO

Ofcourse no is the answer.

But why?

All we dream or imagine is some kind of fantasy isn't it.

Why cant our imagination or dream be the reality in life too, won't it be awesome !

I got your mind voice!!!

This is how it is now - when I see the photos of my family sent to me via whatsapp, I feel why am I missing in that snap?

Job , yeah its my job my occupation that has taken me away from my family.

But this is how my family thinks of it ,
She treats herself busy and started neglecting us (the family).

Do you think the above  statement makes sense?

No way.  In the beginning of my professional life, I did try lots to achieve my work and life balance, the result was I headed home every weekend ( from Chennai to Bangalore, chennai to madurai and back to work again starting from home on sunday arriving at office sharp on each Monday morning )

Resulted in extreme tiredness, thus I became a sleepy head and the most worst part was weight loss. Haha this word dont fit me , a girl who keeps her weight a high secret from others just to ensure and prevent mental shock of that person who comes to know my weight.

And now my marriage got fixed, I can no longer loose my precious weight .

I do miss my family.

Life here is awesome . Isn't it?

Even if not keep repeating yourself that LIFE HERE IS AWESOME  , this is how I made my inner self trust and believe in the above lines.

I know ,  once I am married things are gonna be different.

The only thing I can enjoy is the present moment.

What can be done, I do miss my family, but now I realised traveling every week is impossible with respect to my working life style.

I then found a way, and started keeping myself busy in all ways I can.

I started motivating myself to learn something new that I had not done before.

Swimming was the one I never had a chance to learn before, I also knew after marriage chances to learn something like this is very meagre.

Then government exam preparation classes, not because I long for a government job, just to learn the quants which I had allergies to learn or understand my whole life.

Why did I even write a post like this?

May be sometimes its kind of difficult to carry on, we need some ears to listen to our inner self, do I have no one to take that part for me, I dont know.

Its equally hard to find time and also the other person has to be free for us to share something to them, the later is more hard I knew.

Will this piece of writing help me reduce the stress or burden of my heart or mind?

I dont know.

But I bet, you should give it a try.  You can even share it as comment below this post, so that I could be of help to be a listener to what you share.

Will you give it a try?